Soli Deo Gloria

I am so thankful that I was given a day off – to spend time with my mum, to say hi to my grandma.

I went shopping with my mum today – bought “some” CNY clothes and brought her to this bakery shop in HV to try their breads.

Basically I am really thankful to God for His providence. Lots of things that are happening in my life right now are really beyond my control. It is all the workings of my good Lord.

On Sunday, the homily was “do we love God?, Does God love us ….” I feel so blessed that God loves me even though I am not perfect. He knows that we are not perfect and yet, wants us to lean on Him for strength.

During Bow, we shared about how we felt beign rejected or have we rejected anyone.

Well, the sharing was good – I didn’t shared mine coz I felt that what the others had shared applied to me.

Firstly, I had rejected people due to my own judgement, due to my own preference. Father said that if we let the “Me” grow, we will never get to sense God’s love. Well, for a period of time, the “Me” got the better of me. I get grouchy, angry and unhappy. It was only when I begin to let go and lean on God for His strength and love, was I able to feel the joy.

Yes, I am glad that I have such a good support from BOW and fellow sises and brothers around to offer a listening ear. The love from God and the love of God is enough to keep me going. Thank you Lord.

Lord, I pray that more people will come to know of your goodness and may they open their hearts to know of your goodness. Lord, thank you for calling us out from our darkness and guiding us to walk in your light. Lord, continue to strengthen us and may your word nourish us as we continue our journey of faith. Lord, for my friend who is recovering from her operation, please watch over her. Lord, for my friends who are recovering from heart breaks, please help them to lean on you for you will give them the strength to love others. Lord, for my friend who is unhappy because of office politics/work situation, Lord, please watch over her and may she lift up her problems to your care. Thank you Lord, Amen.

Having God guiding me everyday is a really beautiful thing.

From last week till this Tuesday, I was feeling really grouchy and sensitive. I get angry easily – due to tiredness from work, aching body, and busy work schedule.

I was walking in darkness until Tuesday when I realised that work is taking control of my life (I realised it in the morning).

In the evening, along the way to pick up dearie, I smsed Aurelia and Francis, asking them to pray for me. We continued to sms each other and through this sharing, I felt better. I was more relaxed and could face Wednesday better. If I just do my best, just leave it to God to do the rest … this really works.

On Thursday, despite having to rush a report out, I cleared with my boss if I could hand it in later. She agreed – so I went for my class happily.

On Friday, supposed to go on leave but I went back to office to clear the bulk payment. A day’s leave turned to a half day leave turned into a no leave. I was angry at first but I tried to think from His point of view, in a sense that I need to be responsible for my work. So, I began to let go and I felt better.

Later in the afternoon, my colleague commented “wa, you got force to cancel leave and yet you are still so happy.” She continued to say that I am always happier after Thursday’s class. Though she is new in the company, she had this observation. Another colleague replied her – that’s because she has the Joy of Chrsit... .

Yes, thank you Lord for walking with me all these days and all these hours. ;)

I have learnt a lot today through sharings with others.

I have poured out my burden during group sharing in how I let God direct me in my life. I did not want to cry but the tears just came, non-stop. I hope I didn scare the people around me. I am glad that I had shared coz others came forward and shared how they had overcome this feeling that I am going through.

Recently, I felt anger. Anger from no where. Anger which I want to get rid of but I can’t.

Angry that I cannot spend time doing what I want to do. Angry about why I must always think of others first before my own needs. Angry that things are not going according to my way, my thinking. Angry that things are happening slowly. Angry at the sort of people that I have around me. Angry that I was drifting away from Him and I am letting myself be drifted away. My self being is struggling not to die as I am trying to live a Christian life as best as I can.

In the midst of being angry, I had missed out the feeling of Joy, love and peace – until today.

I found my answers today. Yes, in the midst of being busy with other matters, I had negelected to love. Love is the answer to all things.

I may not like his face, his nagging tone, the long, often repeated story but if I had LOVE, I would be able to accept that person for he/she is God’s unique creation.

I learnt during EE that one needs to be life-giving but this is really difficult to do and I got angry coz I had failed to be life-giving. I felt that I had failed God.

Another person mentioned that we need to focus on the good points of the person – magnify on his/her plus points and the negative aspects would dim.

I also learnt that the sign of peace is really beautiful. The hugs from these people are so reassuring. It is like God using them to tell me that everything will be alright. Some hugged me tight, probably feeling what I am feeling or they really care for me. Others had said that they will keep me in their prayers … *Thank you*

I learnt that things happen for a reason. The fact that I am still unable to move in to my new house may be God’s way of telling me that I need to learn to be patience, to let me really experience how living with hubby and in-laws would be like and maybe it is His way of letting me slowly adjust to the new environment. These could be the points that I had missed out and had gotten angry as to why must I still be shuttling over so many places and why I can’t move in to my new place, why do I have to wait etc …

Today has been a day where I have gotten much from God – His reassuring love for me that I should trust Him no matter what happens. I need to learn to let myself go. Thank you Lord.

Wow. 2006 is over and I am in 2007 already!

2006
Work – a challenging year for me.
Family – gotten married, moving on to the next phase of my life
Faith – still walking on …
Health – not so good

2007
Work – more challenges ahead.I hope I will be more focused and be more mature when handling difficult/selfish/fakey people.
Family – Lord, grant me the graces to be a patient and kind person
Faith – my baptism, a closer walk with Christ, doing something for the Church
Health – good health to – me, my family, hubby and friends … baby? Erm, not for me to decide but Him. =). Start exercising again ... I have unknowingly took a year off exercising =P

Thank you Lord for a good year – for the blessings that You have so generously showered on me and my family. Thank you Lord for giving me so many good friends who are always encouraging me whenever I am down, for listening to me and offering me good/sound advice.

Wishing you all a Happy New Year! : )

I went on a road trip with dearie, my best friend n her ah boy … it was fun – all the eating and sleeping … =P


Reached Malacca, checked in to the hotel where we will be staying…

Had brunch nearby – KFC … as one of the passengers was complaining that she was hungry. We decided to pacify her hunger before she gets too naggy/grouchy for our own good =P

Reached Mid Valley but it was really tough trying to find a parking lot there as I think the whole world is at MV … somehow, I have this feeling that MV is way bigger than Vivo City …

Wanted to try the “famous” Penang Laksa that dearie recommended but they were closed for break and we had to go back at 430pm (means we need to walk around the place for an hour plus before going back to the restaurant)

We did not waste time – we had doughnuts, coffee (one for one lei and it is super yummy), and a milk shake while walking and waiting. Wanted to have ice- cream but somehow, the ice cream store was super duper crowded and we gave that a miss.

We were the first customers to go in to the restaurant at 430pm … not really hungry but just want to try the food …. We ordered Penang laksa, curry noodle and lam mee … one lady at the other table was curious what my friend had and came over to ask – so we told her it is lam mee ….hahahaha ….

After the food, we thought of going to KLCC but we were tired and the thought of going around in public is not very enticing …. We did not want to drive as it would be very difficult to get parking lot … in the end we thought we should just buy champagne and drink for our countdown party back in the hotel room.

We bought chips, Champagne and cheese … before heading back to Malacca…. But the one and a half hour drive turned into a THREE hour drive …. By the time we got back, most of us are hungry but the shops were closed and thus we had to settle for MacDonald’s.

Counted down in the hotel room … most of us were stoned by then as we were on the road most of the day…. There were places displaying fireworks all around us but we only managed to hear the sound as the fireworks were mainly low ones … =P

Day 2

Woke up at 9am to get ready for breakfast ….at about 10am plus …

After that, we went in search for Chendol @ a Peranakan store …. Reached there but the man said the Chendol stuff is not here yet (the green jelly) and so, we hanged around the shop, bought some food, had a sour plum drink, chit chat while waiting for our chendols to be served … really yummy =)

Later, we went in search for the very famous chicken rice balls. I had heard of this many years ago but did not get to eat it … thanks to XP who had been craving for this dish since dunno when…. And to avoid her nagging at us for failing to eat the famous dish, the guys had to queue for a table while the two of us went to shop along the street … =)

The chicken rice balls are yummy and the chicken meat is smooth …Yummy =) after the “lunch” we made our way back to the hotel as we wanted to explore the new shopping area but I supposed going to Malacca means we must patronize the Peranakan food there. As the restaurant will close at 230pm, we decided to have another “lunch”. We managed to convince ourselves that 5 small rice balls and half a chicken is not enough for four of us … hee hee hee … so we ordered more food – prawns, chicken, egg, otak and veggie … we were like crawling out of the shop after the lunch – very satisfied!

We went shopping – to walk off the food before heading to the hotel to get the car.

On the way back, I was sleeping very soundly …. After reached JB, 3 of us got hungry again … or rather, our mouths are itchy for some food. … so we settled our dinner @ a small JB town

On the way back, I saw a mediacorp actor in the next lane – quite cute and he was with a girl that doesn’t look familiar …

Anyway, the trip was good as it was just four of us (small) and we have XP to thank for, for thinking of places to bring us to even though we kept “suaning” her during the trip =P

Also, thanks be to God who was with us throughout this journey, keeping us safe and giving us good weather for the drive. Thank you Lord. Amen. =)