What are my fears?

Tuesday, March 28, 2006
Father asked – what are your fears as you prepare to get married ….

Well, another soul searching question posted by him …

As humans, we are always fearful – fearful of the future – that is why we need God.

Well, some people may think that only the “not confident” people need God. If you are confident of yourself, you only need to rely on your own strength. (I have come to realise that I am just a puny clay and I cannot really do much based on my own thoughts, wisdom and strength .. I still need to look to my creator for help).

Actually, this question – about my fears - is not new. It has been lurking in me for a while and I suppose by asking us to answer this question, he is asking us to come to term with our fears…

I should not let fears push me down but I should turn to God – to ask for strength, wisdom and grace to overcome my fears….
 
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My Thanksgiving

Inspired by the Holy Spirit while listening to the hymn “Give thanks to the Lord”

Give thanks to the Lord … whose love is everlasting …

Give thanks to the Lord … who is always steadfast …

Give thanks to the Lord … who is ever faithful ….

Give thanks to the Lord … who is ever merciful …

Give thanks to the Lord … who is ever ready to forgive and ever ready to love us ….
 
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Face Recognition

Thursday, March 23, 2006
I discovered an interesting site.

Click on to try it out =)
 
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The Will of God

Monday, March 20, 2006
For my friends who are feeling drained, tired, burdened etc ... I pray that you will continue to draw strength from God. He is holding on to us and guiding us in every step/every breath we take.
Hang in there!
Here is a post to share with you... posted on my favourite blogger's website. Enjoy!
 
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Psalm 115

This is a beautiful psalm … and brings to mind that yes, trust in the Lord in all that we do – even when I am sorely afflicted.

PSALM 115
I trusted, even when I said: “I am sorely afflicted.”
O precious in the eyes of the Lord
Is the death of his faithful.

I will walk in the presence of the Lord in the land of the living

Your servant, Lord, your servant am I:
You have loosened my bonds.
A thanksgiving sacrifice I make;
I will call on the Lord’s name.

I will walk in the presence of the Lord in the land of the living.

My vow to the Lord I will fulfill before all his people,
In the courts of the house of the Lord,
In your midst, O Jerusalem.

I will walk in the presence of the Lord in the land of the living.
 
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New Development

Friday, March 17, 2006
The idea has been in my head for a while and I have finally put it into action.

Click here to find out more.


=)

p.s i am still trying to figure out how to put up a link here ...
 
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+PSALM 1+

Reminder … in times of messiness and chaos (be it your frame of mind or your environment), it is always good to turn to the Lord.

Psalm 1

1Happy are those who do not follow the advice of the wicked, or take the path that sinners tread, or sit in the seat of scoffers;

2but their delight is in the law of the LORD, and on his law they meditate day and night.

3They are like trees planted by streams of water, which yield their fruit in its season, and their leaves do not wither.
In all that they do, they prosper.

4The wicked are not so, but are like chaff that the wind drives away.

5Therefore the wicked will not stand in the judgement, nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous;

6for the LORD watches over the way of the righteous, but the way of the wicked will perish.
 
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God Guides Me

Wednesday, March 15, 2006
God guides me.

On Sunday, I played for some parts of the Mass … the parts that I was most afraid of were Sanctus and Angus Dei. I never seemed to be able to get it right when I was practicing. But with God’s amazing grace and by the power of the Holy Spirit, I managed to accompany the choir in their singing. *Thank you Lord!*
 
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Work vs Church

Am I giving myself too much stress?

Or am I slow at work?

Or am I impatient?

These two days I was on course. The training took place within office compound.

Each morning I would rush in to office to clear outstanding matters, return during lunch time to check and after class, return to office to clear whatever that had arise while I was away and on both days, I leave office exhausted.

It is the same today. There are things due (no one specify any deadline but there have been hanging in the air for quite a while and I ought to deliver by now.) but there is also BS… I want to go BS but there is work outstanding.

Is this the price to pay in return for the increment? I can still remember when I first started working, life was not as stressful but as I grow older, the size of my responsibility and stress grows as well.

Well, in case you are wondering, I made it to my BS – work – I’ll leave them till tomorrow.
 
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Loving and Forgiving

Saturday, March 11, 2006
Loving and forgiving are you, O Lord …
Slow to anger and rich in kindness ….
Loving and forgiving are you, O Lord …

--------- the rest of the lyrics – I’ve forgotten. But the hymn is really beautiful ---------
 
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Love is the answer

Thursday, March 09, 2006
Love is the answer.

Love is the answer to all of life’s problem, anger, worry.

This is what I have learnt this week – a week where I had gotten angry with someone, where I started asking God why He sent her to be seated beside me. Why me? why must I be Christ like? Why can’t I be nasty to her ….

Somehow, God knows what I am thinking, going through for he sent his servant to tell me that his precious son also struggled during his time on earth and he showed me how Jesus actually worked round it.

The story stayed with me and I concluded that LOVE IS THE ANSWER … after some thinking through during work, I tried looking at her with love, patience etc and indeed, she became more bearable and I dun feel such anger (anger because she does not seem to know what is happening and is not perform as a good team member) and things can get done better …

During the Mass, I confessed to God my sin – this terrible sin of walking into temptations of being nasty to her, being impatient with her, knowing full well that each and everyone of us are created in his image. I had failed miserably in my journey to be Christ like….

however, my God is a loving and ever forgiving God. He told me “never mind, I will wash you clean. As clean as white snow”.

I was touched (by now, I was tearing so much but it just feels soo good to let God take control of me. It feels so good to feel his warm embrace. It feels so good to just lift everything to him.)

Despite my sins, he loves me still and even told me that as long as I repent, tomorrow will be a brand new day to start all over. (THANK YOU LORD!)

The parting shot was from this hymn (can’t really remember the title but this is one hymn we used to sing during our JC days) – He came from heaven to show the Way ….

Yes. With my focus on God and leaving all things at His hands, I will be safe/saved. Thank you Lord. AMEN.
 
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He knows

Wednesday, March 08, 2006
I came to work feeling (still) angry from yesterday’s incident. Somehow, God knows what I was feeling and sent forth His worker to comfort me. My friend sent me a link that teaches me that even Jesus has his own share of frustrations during the time he spent on earth as Man.

The article makes me realised that it is only work and I should not take it so seriously until it blinded me and be tempted to sin even further. He has a way of overcoming it. It all requires me to see things from his point of view.

Here is the link. Do feel free to click on it to see what it has to offer to you.


Be still ….. Be still and listen ….. Be still and listen for his instruction …..
 
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Shepherd's Voice

Monday, March 06, 2006
Today’s Mass is a different mass. Instead of sitting in the Pew and singing along with the choir, I sat with the choir.

Yes, I managed to pull myself out of the bed at 715 in the morning and make my way to church by 845 for the choir practice.

The feeling of singing with the choir feels great.(hmm, just cannot find the right words to describe). Prior to joining them, I was a bit scared about fitting in. I had joined them earlier for practice but later gave the stupid excuse that I cannot be in church earlier as I am staying far away. I suppose they were disappointed with me back then and so I don’t blame them now if they are a bit cynical.

However, I am thankful that one sister actually invited me to sit with her and shared the song sheet with me. It made me feel welcomed. During the choir practice, a few of them actually asked if I would join them permanently. I did not dare to commit. But deep down, it is a ‘yes’ =) I will just let my Lord guide me along.

Thank you Father for giving me this gift to sing, dance and to play the organ as a way of worshipping you. It has been an enjoyable morning. Though I was tired and stressed with work, you have taken it all away while I was singing my praises to you. Thank you Lord. I lift up all my prayers and thanksgiving to you through Jesus Christ. AMEN.
 
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Busy Day, Heartwarming Day

Saturday, March 04, 2006
The guard came in to ask – did anyone order any food?

No, we did not.

A while later, the guard came in – Cecilia, you ordered the food.

Did I? Nope.

Then I remembered. Dearie actually asked for my office address … he did not tell me that he is ordering food for me. He only asked me how many sites does my company have… I thought he was trying to be funny while I was coaching my colleague on her work.

It was a pleasant surprise. The pizza was still warm and it was yummy. It had olives and lots of cheese … my favourite ingredients! =)


Thank you dearie for being so thoughtful. *hugz*



It’s another number crunching day today. I had moved on to stage two of the project.

It seemed strange – when I was doing up the file for the initial periods, it seemed very difficult. But now, it all seems so easy and the task ahead seems more daunting.

I am tired. Work is never ending. Looking back, my previous jobs were all pretty OK. This current job is really challenging. Hope I can walk on and grow stronger…

We are in the midst of month end closing. I really hope I can make it to the healing mass next Wednesday.
 
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I Miss ...

Friday, March 03, 2006
I miss

I miss going for RCIA class tonight
I miss playing on my electone
I miss God’s warm embrace …
I miss going for bible study class
I miss home-cooked food
I miss school days
I miss my the fellowship with my RCIA friends
I miss my bed
I miss holidays
I miss going for retreats
I miss taking exams
I miss swinging on a swing

Yea, I am in office trying to balance numbers … what should my next job be? Still number crunching?
 
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I am angry .. hmm, just unhappy

Thursday, March 02, 2006
I am angry with my boss. She went back on her words.

Prior to my colleague going on maternity leave, the question of who to take over part of her work arose and my boss said that she will take over. I thought that she was very helpful back then. My other colleague verified with her the next day and she said she will be doing the check and posting as well.

Fast forward two weeks later, she said she will do the posting but I have to check. DUH!!!

Well, I don’t mind doing the work but not in this context where she had completely forgotten what she had said in the meeting and I have other things due for submission…
 
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