Soli Deo Gloria

Time really flies.

This time last year, I was at a cross-road, trying to identify my purpose in life, nursing a heartbreak (plus whatever unhappiness/wounds that had accumulated over the past few years), surrounding myself with friends, and being disgruntled with my ex-boss. But the highlight of 2004 was receiving Jesus at about the same time.

Fast forward one year later, which is now –

* I am a happier person, growing in love with Him and also the special someone He had sent me.
* I am more sensible (I hope? Haha erm, maybe GSP can vouch for me =P) and more emotionally stable and have learnt and still learning to see things from a different point of view.

Life has certainly become more purposeful! =)

Praise be to God!

My Favourite Movie.

For some reason, this is my favourite movie and I simply love the theme song ‘La Vie En Rose’. It could be because of my situation@ that time, my frame of mind, the storyline, the actor/actressplot and the kind of love this two persons share.
Watch it if you can get your hands on a copy of the VCD or DVD.

LOVE ME IF YOU DARE
“Eight-year-old Sophie is the girl on the bus that everyone teases. Julien is the little boy that comes to her rescue. He, too, is an outcast of sorts, struggling to cope with the loss of his dying mother. Together, they invent an outrageous game of "Dare" to keep their spirits alive.

Their game becomes a glorious mutual addiction. It binds them together as it tears them apart. As their feelings for each other grow through childhood into adulthood, each must decide if they are willing to finally acknowledge their love for each other. But can they ever stop playing the game?”

http://www.paramountclassics.com/loveme/index2.html (for more of this show) =)

Just when I tot I had lost the connection with Him, a friend reminded me of the story of FOOTPRINTS and today He has spoken to me Himself about the possible reason why I am feeling that I have lost the connection.

Thanks!

Whenever I am feeling down or troubled, the daily readings and the reflection points seem to be for me. It is like Him telling me what I need to do and He is with me.

=) this is sooo wonderful!

My honeymoon period will be over soon.

My colleague has just tendered and I will be taking over one of her portfolio – CONSOLIDATION.

Hmmm, something new and challenging for me but the Master of this consolidation exercise will be gone by next month. I only have October closing to familiarised myself and ask her questions/guidance.

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I am dying to go for a holiday but there seems to be an event going on every other week.

Haiz!
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It’s raining heavily outside. …. How I miss my bed, my lampchop!

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I can only leave office after 7 as there will be an interview for a potential candidate @ 6.30pm. as her company does not allow her to take urgent leave. The staff needs to give at least 3 days advance notice if they want to take leave.

Violation of human rights?

I went for my class last night. The topic was God our Father. We were given a helicopter view of who God is in biblical terms from OT to NT.

It was enlightening.

Definitely time well spent! =)
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There is this thing that I have shoved to the back of my mind. I am like an ostrich who had stuck my head into the ground just because I dun want to think about it. Last night, the topic was brought up again. Spoke to Father about it. He said – join something that you like.

I am being indecisive and giving myself lots of excuses here. There are groups that I can join but it means making effort to go for them. I kept thinking that I am not good for this and not good for that and that there is someone better in the group already. Well, rightfully speaking, this is an incorrect attitude.

Haiz. I can’t even do this little thing for Him and God has so willingly give up His only son for us… I am so ashamed of myself (so much for all these empty talks about being His Light and salt of the earth…)

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OK. I shall not procrastinate. I shall not have so many worldly concerns. My focus is on Him and Him alone. The Lord provides, right? I shall put my trust and faith in Him and join one of the ministries and grow in it!

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Lord,
Teach me knowledge and good judgment, for I believe in your commands.
You are good, and what you do is good; teach me your decrees.
May your unfailing love be my comfort, according to your promise to your servant.
Let your compassion come to me that I may live, for your law is my delight.
I will never forget your precepts, for by them you have preserved my life.
Save me, for I am yours; I have sought out your precepts. psalm 119

Today is yet another busy day. Rushing reports and, helping colleagues with their questions. It has been fun (ok, I think I am crazy but if I am hired, I would prefer that they let me do some things than to be rotting, and pretending to be busy @ work.)


In the midst of all these, some friends are having difficulty @ their workplace.

One went for an interview but came back feeling lousy (“stupid” was the word used).

Another is having problem with the boss (in this case, I supposed it is more of a case of mismatched expectations). As a result, this friend of mine felt lousy – to the extent of asking “Am I just exam smart and hence I can’t deliver?”

Third case – this guy is a freshie. He is being interviewed for an attachment with a company but this interviewer just wrote felt that he does not have the relevant experience that they are looking for?

Are employers not willing to give people who want to change their career paths/ people who are really inexperience a chance to prove themselves?

For all my friends (if you are reading this), do not feel bad about yourself. God created you. Hence, if you think that you are stupid and are a loser, are you implying that the creator is stupid too? Coz He made you in His image.

Pray over it – for Faith in Him and not be disheartened.

He may have other plans for you – plans that we cannot see at this point of time but will unfold in front of you in His time.


For me, I used to get very upset (maybe even depressed) when I see my friends getting into Big Four (previously known as Big 5) but not me. Now, I realized that I am meant for other things. I am not meant to slog my life away in the Big 4. Instead, I went to a local audit firm, then accounting line. So far, my work life has been pretty smooth. (Thank God for all these blessings).

I did not ace at all the interviews. I can go for an interview but I get so tongue tied that I totally made a fool of myself in front of the interviewers. I can forget what I want to say or what I should say. At the end of the day, I just know that the job was not meant for me.

My JC school principal always said “when a door is closed on us, many other doors/windows are opened”. Hence, we should not be so hung up that we cannot open this particular door but look around, there are many other doors available. If you can’t see any opened doors @ the moment, stay in the room but dun give up searching. =)

Hmm, I have talked too much here… just want to leave behind a passage that I came across this morning.

Do Not Worry (Luke 12)
22Then Jesus said to his disciples: "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. 23Life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. 24Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! 25Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life[b]? 26Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?

27"Consider how the lilies grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 28If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you, O you of little faith! 29And do not set your heart on what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it. 30For the pagan world runs after all such things, and your Father knows that you need them. 31But seek his kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well.

32"Do not be afraid, little flock, for your Father has been pleased to give you the kingdom. 33Sell your possessions and give to the poor. Provide purses for yourselves that will not wear out, a treasure in heaven that will not be exhausted, where no thief comes near and no moth destroys. 34For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

How true … let’s all seek first His kingdom and put all our faith in Him.

“Hence, all depends on faith, everything is grace.” Romans 4:16

Thank you Father!

I was being tormented by the tax computation since last thursay. I just can't seem to get the reconciliation done up and close the case. This morning, I told myself that I need to complete by the end of today.

I spent the entire morning trying to solve the problem but I have failed to complete it even by lunch time!

After lunch, I decided to seek His help (plus prayers for my other friends). After my prayers, I looked at my computation again and Praise the Lord! I finally solved my problem!

Through Him, I am able to see clearer. He gives me strength and widsom!

Thank you Father. =)

Do you often feel that you are not going anywhere in whatever you are doing? Life seems to be floating by without much of an excitment? All your peers are progressing to somewhere in their lives except you? Do you feel like giving up?

Well, do not despair. Just hang in there and do your best coz God will take care of the rest.

Read the story below. =)

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"I Would not Quit" He Said

One day I decided to quit...I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality...I wanted to quit my life.I went to the woods to have one last talk with God."God", I said. "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"

His answer surprised me...

"Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"

"Yes", I replied.

"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them.I gave them light. I gave them water. The fern quickly grew from the earth.Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.

In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful. And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. He said.

"In the third year, there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I would not quit.

In the fourth year, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. "I would not quit." He said.

"Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth.

Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant...

But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall.

It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.

I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle."

He said to me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots"

"I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you."

"Don't compare yourself to others." He said.

"The bamboo had a different purpose than the fern. Yet, they both make the forest beautiful."

"Your time will come", God said to me. "You will rise high!"

"How high should I rise?" I asked.

"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.

"As high as it can?" I questioned.

"Yes." He said,

"Give me glory by rising as high as you can.

"I left the forest and bring back this story.

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